wow i can't believe it's been 3 years since i log on to this thing. i'm surprised i even remember the password haha. hmm i wonder if anyone is even still on this? haha oh wells..i guess this is for whoever is reading haha.
so i bet you guys are wondering whats new with me and yada yada. to be honest, nothing really just the same old thing. how interesting huh? my main focus have been on my job all this time. i'm glad to say that i've been working there for three years now and still going. pretty good for a first LEGIT job huh haha. am i planning to leave? there have been a couple of times when i be like "fuck it" and want to leave but when i really think of it..i really don't because of the simple fact that it's safe there. what do i mean by "safe"? well, for one thing i'm wanted over there and i know how to do almost everyone's job there. plus, my job is pretty flexible with my schedule. not like i have one really but if i was to take a day off out of the blues....no one is going to be trippin over it. I will have to say that i put in alot of work and dedication into my job even when i don't have to. bottom line.. it pays my bills and buy me the things i want and need. =)
love life? well...none really. i mean i've dated around but nothing serious. maybe because i have such "high standards" as some people said about me but i really don't think so. i don't know what it is really but i'm not worry about it either. whatever happen happens i guess. love wasn't made to be search for..when it's ready..it will find you. some of the world's best couples come from years of good friendship and sometimes people don't realized that they are in love with someone until that person is gone or taken by someone else. sometimes...that person is right in front of you and you just don't know. i mean you can put yourself out there to be found but never intentionally look because i don't think it will work out in the end. how many dating show couples really live happily ever after? not many right? flavor flav had 3 seasons of flavor of love and he ends up purposing to his baby mama which is, by the way, not even in any of the shows. bottom line is..love is unexpected. it's kinda scary because you just never know who you will end up with and if that person really loves you and blah blah but its worth the risk to find out. Sometimes people don't want to fall in love with someone because they are scared of what other people thinks even though that person is very compatible with them. i think its really dumb to have that kind of mentality. so what if that person doesn't look a certain way. what if that person has all the qualities you ever wanted in your significant other. are you really going to let it go because of what your friends think? in the end, it's your heart and your life that it affects and not your friends' lives and what they think.
ok i think i'm ranting and raving about nothing at all haha. until next time. take care
the one and only..
Me
